Friday, February 23, 2007
Last Exam Day & Chillin' Out
This morning was the final paper: BioScience. I think it was pretty alright, but I couldn't stand the MCQs as there were lots of questions I wasn't able to answer. I was pretty much guessing the answer throughout. And I kept repeating the word 'Fuck' whenever I see a question I don't understand or couldn't answer. I hope I'll pass this paper, and if I do, that's it, no more Bio for the following year! I think it's enough with remembering the anatomy and shit. Idk, I find it pretty useless, cuz I learn, memorize and vomit it all back out on exams, and then, everything is totally erased from my mind. I'm not that kinda student who will remember the notes and facts. It goes in and out. I find Bio a bit of a bullcrap. Total shit thing. People back in the past must be damn bored of their lives that they had to create up some funny shit story about a human body, and get a Nobel Prize or whatever prize from it. One word = Crap.
So I ended the paper like 30mins earlier, and I walked out of the hall. Caught up with some friends, discussed about the paper, and I took off and waited for the others outside. So around 11, I had McWings for breakfast and lunch, and then headed out to town. My friends and I headed out to Somerset, and from there, we went to Cineleisure. We bought the tickets to the local movie called 'Just Follow Law'. The movie was at 1345hrs. So we had about an hour or so before the movie started. We walked around, looking at shoes *Like omfg, the shoes are fucking nice, and I'm thinking of getting it. I have a plan.. Look below for it* After strolling around, we ended up sitting at Coke Red Lounge. It started off with Sharania and Nad buying a cheesecake each.
Look damn nice right? Hell yeah it is. Damn nice and rich. Then, Hasnah and Fairuz went over to the counter to buy some. I didn't take the pictures, but they bought Turkey Ham Sandwich, Egg Salad, and Seafood Basket. They also got themselves Iced Peach Tea each.
That's the picture of the Iced Peach Tea. It came in such a nice glass, that for a moment, I thought it was sewage water. But it tasted good. Everything tasted good. We sat there for an hour, gobbling away. Definitely a place to come back to when I head down to Cineleisure again.
While entering the cinema, it was all super dark, and there was no light except from the screen and blue lights guiding us down the stairs. I have a bit of a visual problem, and I tend to have this floating image, so I tend to miss a step alot. So me and Hasnah were holding hands and getting down the stairs real slowly. The movie was great. It was funny, but like Sharania said, only the locals would understand the movie.
After the movie, Hasnah rushed off. So left with 5 of us, and we sat at the MRT station for like 10mins or so thinking of a place to go. We came up with Holland V, Clarke Quay, Boat Quay, Kranji Memorial Park, Sembawang Park, and several other parks. Everyone was tryna avoid Sembawang Park cuz it was located too damn close to Fairuz's place. But.. we all end up going there. Oh well. We played a game of Bluff, ate some food, and sat down and just joked. We sat down till it started to drizzle. And then, back to home.
Here's a picture of the can I drank. Yeah, I was that bored.
A picture I took of Sembawang Park facing the beach. Nice? Yeah, not upclose though.
Lol. I just had to take this pic. Like a walk down memory lane kinda pic.
Well, that's about it. Then here I am, updating my blog.
I think about my life a little too much. Am I really gonna be here for all my life?
Now I'm off, I guess. Goodnight.
Note: Expect more pictures soon. Chalet is on Monday & Tuesday!
the beauty exposed ; 11:34 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Search for the arsonist
I learnt a new word today. Got it from a VF user whose username has this word ephemerally. Kinda cool word.
I'm tryna study for my bio exam that's happening this Friday morning, but I'm really not up to it. I only read up till page 15, and I'm giving up. There's a total of 100+pages of notes to complete, but don't think I'm gonna make it that far.
I'm down with a rather bad flu today, and it kinda sucks. Brings my entire mood down. I feel like total crap, and all people ever do is keep pissing me off. It's freaking irritating! Oh well.
I found a couple of poems I wrote maybe 3 or 4 years ago. Here they are:
Lying on my bed
As I lay
On my bed
Thinking of the day
On how it went.
I've got a friend
I knew not too long ago.
Something tells me that it's at an end.
Why? Is it because of this word: Ego?
Sometimes I say
Things I don't mean
I certainly took the wrong way
By being so mean.
I scare everyone
With the words I use.
Am I a curse?
I know, I thought of that, too.
If I could 'take back the pain, I would'
If I could 'retrace every wrong move that I made, I would'
But all I could do is sit and cry.
Have I been digging my own grave all this while?
She Is Me
Under the sweet moonlight,
I see a human
Crying in silence,
Heaving out a sigh.
She is an assassin,
a killer, a murderer.
She murders people with her silence
She murders people with her words.
What is love to her, no one knows.
All she ever know is hurt and pain.
Used & Fooled
I was used
The other day
By a lady
Who'll turn 25 someday.
I don't know why
She did that to me.
She made me cry
And did not see.
I was fooled
The other day
By a lady
Who'll turn 25 someday.
I got trapped
In her net
To do things
That I hate.
I was used
The other day
By two ladies
Who'll turn 25 someday.
They used me
To hurt my friend
I created a horrible scene,
And I know this is the end.
I was fooled
The other day
By two ladies
Who'll turn 25 someday.
They fooled me
Into hurting my friend.
Now he's terrified of me...
Am I going to lose a friend?
Also, here's several quotes I found which were from my ex:
"Keep your eyes wide shut if something bad happens"
"Pain is only in the mind"
"Pretend you don't know anything even if you know something"
"Realize the power of your own thoughts"
"If someone throws you a ball, you don't necessarily have to catch it"
"Get comfortable not knowing"
"Think of your problems as a potential teacher"
"You make peace with imperfection"
"Be aware of the snowball effect of your thinking"
"Praise and blame, they are all the same"
"A dream is a dream and only a dream until you achieve it"
"Ask yourself this question: Does it matter?"
"Accept the fact that life is unfair"
"Spare the moment everyday to think of someone to thank"
"Don't bother getting others to understand you because people will never understand"
"Look for the extraordinary in ordinary"
"Quit thinking that more is better"
Alright then. There you go. I think that's enough with those kinda stuff. Now, lemme talk about some random shit. So I was on my bed last night thinking about soul mates and the ideal mate. Wanna know how my ideal mate looks like? Here's a description:
- Must have: Tall, cute, handsome, witty, sexy smile & eyes, romantic, family man, sense of humor, responsible, good job, understanding
- Must have to a certain extent: Sensitive, attitude, caring, friendly, career-focused, randomness
- Add-on points: Dimple, worked out body, talented
Here's the ideal man [look-wise]:
In case you're wondering who the heck he is, his name is Ian Watkins. Remember that.
And this is Christian Bale. Look at that strong facial features.
Note: In case you all haven't watched his his movie, Harsh Times, and The Prestige, I would strongly suggest to all of you to watch it.
I know, all this dreams will never come true. But oh well, I shall continue dreaming and hope that it'll come true.
So next week is the chalet. I can't wait, but to think about it, I doubt I'll be enjoying it. Idk. I'm not in the best of moods lately, and it's annoying me. Idk why, although I wish i knew. But what the hell. Maybe it's cuz I can't accept the fact that life is unfair.
I sit down and wonder how he is doing, up till today. That thought has never escaped and never will.
I think that's it for today. All I know is that I need to shed some pounds, and hopefully, I will. Oh, and I might be getting myself contact lenses, and probably recoloring my hair to purple with red streaks. I'm not too positive about that, cuz I would need to bleach my hair, and the cost and all. And I was thinking of rebonding my hair again, but oh well, when it comes to think about the finance, I think I'll skip it.
the beauty exposed ; 7:23 PM
Monday, February 19, 2007
Anna Nicole Smith
First off, I'm gonna talk about my exams. Well, I sat for my Med-Surg and Psychology paper a couple of days ago, and trust me, it kinda sucked. I totally hate the Med-Surg paper cuz it's totally unrelated to anything about medical/surgical nursing. It's stupid. And for the Psychology paper, although it's fully MCQs, there was 100 questions. Yeah, imagine shading the stupid small circle a hundred times. And it wasn't at all easy. It was rather tricky. Blah. One more paper to go before total freedom and enjoyment.
Oh, and it's past midnight now. And I'm tired. But I thought I'd just post in a bit.
Anyways, today, I'm gonna talk about the famous late Anna Nicole Smith (November 28, 1967 – February 8, 2007). She passed away at the age of 39. I think she's been through many ups and downs in her life, and I really admire her for that. Despite many setbacks in life, she persevere through it, and face it. She's one strong lady, and I think her going away will be missed by many. She's been through teenage pregnancy, at the age of 17, and giving birth to her son, Daniel Wayne Smith. She was a single mother after being separated with her first husband, father to Daniel. She was just a regular teenage girl looking for a good life, and raising her first child. And soon enough, she becomes the famous Anna Nicole we all know. She's greatly known as the sex symbol, starring on Playboy magazines and TV screens everywhere. After meeting the billionnaire Marshall, she divorced her husband, Billy, and got married to him instead. They had like 69 years of age difference between them. She was 26, and he was 89. He passed away 13 months later. The money? I think she inherited all of it, or most of it. Some say that the problem hasn't been resolved, but we'll come to that bit later.
Last year, on September 7th, 2006, she gave birth to her second child, Dannielynn Hope Marshall Stern. Pretty name, Dannielynn. 3 days later, on 10th September, her son, Daniel, died to what could be the highly cause of a lethal combination of several medication. He was only buried like one to two weeks later. He was only 21 years old.
September 28th, Anna Nicole got married to Stern. Was her marriage legal? Nope. There was no marriage certificate. It was just a verbal promise made to one another. So in the eyes of the law, they were not married.
On 8th February 2007, Anna Nicole died in a hotel room. It was claimed by Stern that she had high fever the day before her death. She wasn't overdosed with any drugs, so the cause of her death is unknown. There is still a big hoohah about this, but I honestly think she died due to natural causes. She has died, and I think it's time for people to move on and not make such a big fuss regarding the cause of her death. It won't matter anymore, cuz she's no longer around.
And there's the dispute regarding the paternity over her daugher, Dannielynn. The fight between 4 men: her husband, Stern, her ex-boyfriend, Birkhead, the third-party, Prinz and the bodyguard, Denk. On the birth certificate of Dannielynn, it was stated that Stern is the father. I figured that should be it. I don't understand why the 4 gentlemen have to make a big story out of this. I wonder why they didn't fight about Dannielynn when Anna Nicole was still alive. She would be able to clear the whole mess. After her death, suddenly everyone's Dannielynn's father. Ridiculous? Maybe. Perhaps it's all cause of the money she has got, and what Dannielynn's gonna be inheriting. In a few more months, hopefully this will be resolved. I really sympatize with Dannielynn over this entire thing. Poor baby. Just a kid, and having to go through all this.
Well, I think Anna Nicole will be greatly missed by many. The small town girl who turned into a big star. And it didn't take her overnight.
Here's a picture of late Anna Nicole in remembrance:
A picture of late Anna Nicole and Daniel:
A picture of late Anna Nicole with her daughter, Dannielynn, and Stern:
Sad story of her life.
Note: If the picture goes missing, then it's not due to my photobucket being full. It's probably cuz of the sites I took it from has put it down. Yes, it's direct image linkage to different websites. So don't bitch on me about it.
the beauty exposed ; 1:02 AM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
HS 2117: Mental Health Nursing & VDay
Yeah yeah, I changed my Blog title to Sex & Candies. What more to ask for?
Paper: HS2117, Mental Health Nursing
Time Started: 1230hrs
Duration: 2hours
Today was my first semestral exam paper: HS 2117 Mental Health Nursing. Trust me, it sucked. From the very moment I flipped open the question paper and read the first MCQ question, I know it's the end of me. Subsequently, as I read more, I know I was as good as dead. Then I rushed to the SAQ section, and thank god, it wasn't so bad. Time for me to breathe... or so I thought. So it lasted for 2 hours. And this is the first time I didn't leave the exam hall earlier. 2 hours wasn't enough time. I took about an hour to finish up the 60MCQs and they wasn't easy. It was tricky, and a total headache for me. I had to spend like maybe 1 to 2 minutes on each question, and that definitely wasted time. So I'm left with another hour to complete 5SAQs. And I thought I had enough time, so I actually took the effort to write neatly for the first one. Heads up, 1400hrs. Yeah, imagine my fear. I was left with half an hour, and 4 more SAQs to complete. So I wrote, and wrote and wrote in my worst handwriting imaginable *I've got a nice handwriting. Totally neat and readable* and I was practically scribbling. I was told not to write in point-form, but what the heck, I was left with a fucking 30 minutes. Screw the criteria as long as I got my points down. So I was sweating, and my heart was racing... But I managed to complete the paper. I admit that I didn't do my best, but I tried. I hope it'll be ok.
Tomorrow.
Second paper: HS2037, Medical-Surgical Nursing @ 1630hrs.
Another terrible paper. Things just don't keep getting better.
Oh, yeah... before I forget..
Happy Valentine's Day!
To all who have a Valentine, who doesn't have a Valentine, my friends and enemies. Whatever. Just enjoy the freaking day that's loaded with chocolates and flowers and bears.
I'm gonna get ready to meet Tony for dinner. Woot. Well, I sorta forced him to meet me for dinner. Whatever.
And I found a youtube.com clone... It is... pornotube.com!
ROFL! Strictly above 18years ok kiddos.
And I almost forget another thing! Forgetful me!
My friends and I were in the train heading towards Jurong East after our exam, and guess who we saw? No, not David Beckham. It was this Bennette guy who plays for Singapore in the Asian cup. And we were laughing cuz we thought his nose was a lil bit too... weird. It was just too... weird! And no one else recognizes him, which was kinda strange. Lol. Sure tells that Singaporean doesn't watch local soccer games. But well, ok.. respect to him for playing for Singapore. The Asian Cup winnings is Singapore's pride. Will we ever make it to World Cup? We'll see about that.
the beauty exposed ; 6:12 PM
Monday, February 12, 2007
Sakura Buffet for VDay
Yesterday was a super busy day. Went out to eat at Sakura Suki Buffet for dinner. It was a treat for VDay. Hehe, an advance treat. Before you start asking, I went to the Toa Payoh's outlet. So I reached there at around 6pm or so, and damn was it crowded. I was directed to a reserved seating, and it was located at an isolated part of the restaurant, all the way inside. I freaking hate the layout of that restaurant, as it was rather difficult to get the foods. I mean, imagine having to head like all the way back to the entrance for the foods and drinks. How irritating is that?!
I really shouldn't be complaining as I wasn't the one taking the food. Tony was. I really felt kinda weird that he was taking all the food and I was just sitting there, gobbling up all the food he took. But after a while, I think he took a lil too much food, and I told him to sit and eat. We both ate a lot. A whole lot. You don't wanna see our faces after the meal. We both looked stupid and weird. With our fat little tummies. Lol.
I think it was quite alright for a dinner meal costing $26 per head. What I thought wasn't alright was that the damn restaurant was playing some stupid chinese songs. I mean, hey I know CNY is coming, but please be respectful and know that other races are also coming in to eat. It was really annoying, especially when the songs started to sound like Xmas songs. It was irritating. But the noise from the crowd soon drown out the whole songs thing.
So what did I ate? Here's the list (pictures will be at the bottom of this post): First off, I started with satay. There were 3 sticks of it, and I ate 2. Then, there was sashimi, consisting of (all raw) salmon, tuna, cuttlefish and octopus. I ate one of the salmon, and thank god I didn't puke it out. It left this disgusting fishy taste in my mouth, and blech, I had to drink lots of the punch to kick out the taste. Then there was sushi: salmon sushi, egg sushi, fish eggs sushi, and octopus sushi. I ate 3 of the salmon sushi (I am only capable of surviving that thanks to the vinegar rice and the seaweed. The tastes kinda blend in). I also ate like 2 baby octopus. It was nice and sweet. Then there was the shark's fin soup, which tasted horribly horrible. It tasted so weird, unlike the one I had in the Downtown East outlet. What else did I ate..? OH!!! How can I forget the grilled dory fish, chicken chop and beef steak. The dory fish and chicken chop was delicious, and I finished it. But the beef steak.. was kinda bland in taste. I just had like one strip of it, and I gave it up. Bear in mind that I'm close to being bloated here. I had grilled salmon too, and it was rather alright. Not up to my liking, though. Oh, dammit, I just remembered something. I attempted to eat raw oysters, and fucking shit will I never try that again! It was freaking horrible! The look of it, I mean, it was still cold and icy, and the smell and shit, damn! It was just horrible. Idk how Tony managed to swallow it down.
After all that, came the sweet stuff. I had 2 of the durian puffs. It was freaking sweet and nice, and I so loved it. Tony dislike durians. He claims they have this bitter taste and foul smell. Well, I gotta agree with the foul smell, but not the bitter taste though. It was freaking sweet, and he gave me this funny look when I happily swallowed it. Then there was some cakes which I didn't touch cuz I was close to puking all my food out. I was really bloated. I managed to take a bite out of the 'mochi' or something that's similar to marshmellows. It was nice, but oh well, sadly, I was stuffed.
There was a policy in the restaurant to not waste food. And that every 250 or 500 grams of food wasted, the customer had to pay maybe $5. So, we didn't finish the beef steak, the sashimi, and the shark's fin soup. Guess what we did? We just walked out of the restaurant pretending as though nothing happened. We immediately split and walked over to the restroom. It was kinda funny for the both of us to be eating that much. Imagined how much my stomach expanded. And oh dear do I need to start going on a diet. I ate too much last night. What sweet sin. And gluttony. Here's some pics I took of the food:
The evil sashimi from hell. Trust me, it was horrible. Never ever eat this.
The raw food from hell. The freaking oysters (already eaten and swallowed by Tony) are here to kill me!!
This was delicious. The heavenly grilled dory fish!
Oh these are my faves. The sweet sweet stuff for someone sweet like me!
Then we spent the remaining of our time walking around, and I bought this small bottle of eye cream. The lady told me that it should be able to lighten up my dark circles around my eyes, and reduce the puffiness. I sure am hoping it will work, cuz if not, I WANT MY $40 REFUND!
Here's a pic of the bottle:
I was told to apply it twice a day, once in the morning, and once before I head to bed. It's like a gel, and I am only to dispense 2 - 3 drops and massage it around my eyes. It better freaking works. It's just a 30ml bottle. The reason I wanna remove the dark circles is cuz I have intentions of getting contact lenses. Idk, I'll see how the plan goes in a couple of months.
The clothes at Toa Payoh was nice and cheap. I was amazed. Really amazed. I have never been to Toa Payoh, and I think I looked like a tourist. I was going 'Wow' to everything, even at the clothes store. I think everyone's think I'm weird. Hell yeah I am.
Anyways, me and my sister decided to paint our nails pink. It was kinda weird for me cuz it made me look darker than I actually am. This is what happens when I put on bright nail polish.
Here's an odd looking pic:
Yeah yeah, shut up.
Alright, I think that's about it.
Oh wait a minute, how can I possibly forget? I messaged this person the other day, let's just call this person 'V'. I messaged V the other day, updating V about my change of number. Well, V was blah blah blah, and the normal usual crap. And I am so glad to know that my ex has never contacted V ever since the night I argued with him about truths and lies. Maybe he jumped down and died or something. Wait, I think that's rather impossible. Maybe he took a gun and shot himself in the head. Perhaps that's more realistic. Well, yeah, so much of whatever.
Anyways, I was just wondering... How come some people just get lucky, and yet here I am, waiting for luck to come by. And it hasn't. Rather disappointing. It's rather weird how some people get all the limelight, and yet, here I am sitting in the dark, typing this shit out. Gah! The unfairness of life.
Boohoo! 2 more days to my first nightmare: Mental Health exam papers. And that means the start of my semestral exams before I proceed on to my final year. Boohoo.
When the dreams of a teenage girl are never fulfilled, what do she do then? Sit around and wait for him to come by, or steps out and look for him? I have this funny feeling that she'll just sit around, and waits for her tall, charming guy to come around... Like never.
and one last thing. I was watching this movie called Equilibrium, and I thought it was totally amazing. You guys should check it out. Gotta check it out.
And by watching the movie, I found myself someone to adore:
He doesn't look anywhere as good as in American Psycho, and especially Batman Begins. This was the best movie where he looked the best. I found a great picture of him on American Psycho, but I couldn't save it and tag it here. Bleh.
Alright, really now, peace out.
the beauty exposed ; 5:18 PM
Thursday, February 8, 2007
VDay
Idk if I've mentioned it, but I've got a FerreroRocher bouquet!! Here's a pic:
Cute, isn't it? 3 of the Rochers are already eaten
Anyways, I had a group study today, and managed to complete like 3 or 4 topics for Medical-Surgical. Still got loads more, and I'm gonna cram and try to stick to schedule by Monday. Idk why I'm panicking this time round. Maybe cuz I'm rushing for really good grades after seeing my GPA score sliding down slowly. It's just scary.
I'm dead tired, and having bad shoulder aches. Oh well. Oh, and I'm getting a pimple outbreak all over my forehead, and idk what to do with it. I hope it'll go away. It's probably cuz of stress, but bkeh.
I've got a pair of new platforms, but I haven't got a pic of it yet. Will take a picture probably over the weekends. It's all black, and probably 3 - 4 inches high. But damn, it's so tiring to walk in it, but I'm tryna get over it. Gotta practise walking in it.
I'm craving for gummie bears.. I just like the chewy feeling of it. It's so nice and yummy.
Anyways, I think I better get myself down to studying before I stick my butt in front of the computer. Back to my books!
the beauty exposed ; 6:44 PM
Saturday, February 3, 2007
Random
Alright. I'm gonna start studying in a while, right after I'm done with this post.
Tomorrow, I'm gonna celebrate Valentine's Day in advance. So I'm gonna be lugging around a guitar tomorrow. Gee... Then next week, most probably, I'm gonna be getting a VDay meal, as well as a facial spa session as a gift. I can't wait to see how it's like!
So yesterday, out of boredom during my last lecture, I did this...
The happy family. *LOL* I know, I'm so weird.
And another one:
So now you all know how crazy I am for Ian. Whahahahahaha
alright, so now I'm gonna head off to plan my schedule to study and hopefully stick to it.
Till next time.
the beauty exposed ; 1:25 PM
Thursday, February 1, 2007
February
It's finally February. My exam's in a week's time. Everything is still the same old story. Day in and day out, the same thing over and over. Sometimes, I think my life is nothing but a lie. Like I'm not living it. Like I'm just watching myself from another view like a movie. Idk, maybe I'm going nuts.
When was the last time I opened up and talked about how I feel? I barely could recall that moment. I just wish someone would be sensitive enough to sense me, to feel me, and lemme pour it out, without judging me, without pressurizing me. I feel so empty, so hollow inside. There's so many things I wanna talk about, and idk where to start, and idk what it is either. I just wanna be hugged and cry. And not stop till there's no more tears left to cry. But there is no such person around. No such person exist.
Why do I fake myself? Why do I lie to myself about myself? But even so, no one cares. Everyone very much prefer the fake me than the real me. There are stories my friends don't know about me, and I'm very much sure that if they do, they'll judge me, and label me as 'that dirty little thing'. I wish certain things didn't happen in my life, that I didn't have to go through it.
Loneliness kills.
the beauty exposed ; 10:47 PM
