At the moment, while I'm blogging this, I'm listening to Dennis talk.... about some crap... testing his new software about manipulating the voice. He sounds so sissy using the woman's voice, but sounded very good and sexy with the deep male's voice. XD
Anyhow, another day at work. Boo.
And I need to get over it.
So anyhow... I was reading Kul's blog, and something inspired me there.... List out my dream-guy's characteristics. So here goes...
- Hair: Straight hair. Either neatly spiked up, or those scene boy's hair... You know, the one that has the fringe covering part of the face, and the back is spiked up... You know, something like Kenny's hair. If you still don't know what I'm talking about, go to Cineleisure, see the boys' hair. And I love boys with colorful hair.
- Eyes: I adore those dreamy eyes. It's hard to explain, really. But big eyes will do. You know the saying, "You can look into a person's soul through his eyes". So, the bigger the eyes, the better. Cuz I wanna try looking into his soul. Preferable colors: Greenish-blue, hazel, caramel, grey.
- Lips: Sexy lips that will curl up into a really pretty and cute smile. (Like Josh Farro's smile)
- Clothings: Skinny jeans. Band tees. Or anything really nice. Just dress up, ok.
- Extra points: Knows how to play either acoustic guitar, electric guitar, bass guitar or drums, or his own vocal cord. Loves my kind of music. Enjoys going to gig and save me from the moshpit. Rich (I am materialistic deep inside. The side of me that I'm trying not to let it surface). Gentle, yet manly. Good in bed (LMFAO). A potential good husband.
OK, I'm running out of things to say. Dennis is driving me nuts.
Explain to me This conspiracy against me And tell me how I’ve lost my power
the beauty exposed ; 6:53 PM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Mission: Ben & Jerry's - Failed.
Day 2.
Another loooooong boring, tiring, hot day. All the boring scheduled lectures. The super annoying "lecturers". Like I've said, if I could murder and get away with it, I will murder without hesitating.
But, I gotta thank... erm... God? My fate? Erm...? Well, whoever it is I gotta thank for blessing me with the wackiest of friends ever. Even though the group's not complete, I still had my fair share of laughing for the day with Rania & Fairuz. They simply could drive me nuts. All the jokes, the evilness rooted deep inside them that's already surfacing at a super fast rate... Oh gee, my stomach could burst laughing. Booyah! I'd drop dead in the lecture hall if not for you guys' jokes and laughter.
Anyhow, our most important mission for the day: Ben & Jerry's free ice-cream day.
It failed.
I was too astonished for words at that very moment. (Location: ViVoCity) The queue.... was super duper long.... all the way leading towards the outside... What's more... The line were actually filled with students in uniforms... They are the bulk of the damned queue. I mean, for fuck's sake (I've been hearing Rania said this a million times during lecture, and it just got stuck in my head now), get your asses home, do something more worthwhile than queueing up for ice-cream. It's like, Hello! I just finished a fucking long day at work, I need something to cool myself off. And wow! There it goes. And no, no fucking way am I gonna queue for so long for an ice-cream. No effin' way.
So... Being the brilliants we all are... (by the way, the group consisted of Fairuz, Jeremy, Rania & me). We went to Haagen Daz instead... Ended up buying ice-cream instead.. Just for the sake of ice-cream, we went to such great lengths.
And now, I'm broke. Really broke. Ugh. And the fucking weather.... Singapore really need its share of autumn and winter. Thanks so much to the friggin hot weather, my face is so unsightly... Let's not talk about that, or I'll ramble on and on.
Jeremy: I really am soooooo sorry for the uber long trip! I will treat you uber nicely out of goodwill. XD
Boo. Off I go to end my day in peace, just the way I like it....
"Hi, my name is Cherry.
Do visit cherry-porn.com for complete satisfaction for all your daily needs." ROFLMAO.
the beauty exposed ; 8:30 PM
Monday, April 28, 2008
Jaded.
Gosh. I feel so jaded now.
It's just day 1. And what's more... it's just orientation.. Just sitting down on my ass, and yet, I feel it. Somehow, my feet are sore. I need a massage. Warm water to soak my feet in. Body massager.
Guess this is life. I am gonna crash.
I miss my slacking life.
And now we're here again Up on your roof so high The whole world can just go to hell For all I care tonight I can feel the end is near It all has come as we had feared
And if our final day has come Let's pretend to carry on And if the end has now begun Live on Live on
I just can't believe the day has come When all the clocks stand still The horizon seems to disappear And all our dreams are unfullfilled I can feel the end is near It all has come as we had feared
And if our final day has come Let's pretend to carry on And if the end has now begun Live on Live on
This is our final day This is our final day This is the final thunder Up on your roof so high Let's stay and wait for the morning Even if it's not in sight
Has our ending just begun? Don't care, pretend to carry on
And if our final day has come Let's pretend to carry on And if the end has now begun Live on Live on
And if our final day has come Let's pretend to carry on And if we stay we'll always Live on Live on
This is the final thunder Up on your roof so high Let's stay and wait for the morning Live on Live on This is our final day
Lyrics dedicated to all my friends who feels like life has ended the moment they're stuck in a job they truly despise. This is our final day.
the beauty exposed ; 8:05 PM
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Let's splurge.
And so I've decided.
I am gonna perm my hair (again...). Let's just hope that this time, I won't rebond my hair after 6 months (cuz of being tired of having curls). I'm not sure what perm to get tho, so I might just as well pop myself into a hair studio, and talk to a hairstylist, and get his/her opinions. Cuz if possible, I want the perm to join up nicely with my already curled top part of my hair. (FYI, I have natural curls). My personal hairstylist a.k.a bro's gf suggested a Japanese perm... but it'll only last between weeks to 2 months. (The reason I am not going to her to get my hair done is cuz her salon charge a whole lot. It's pretty unreasonable.) Maybe I'll go for a digital perm, and request for the curls to start somewhere from the top of my head. And let's hope that it won't turn out looking ugly, or make me look like a poodle, or some auntie. Oh well... let's just trust the hairstylist, yeah? And I thought of making a monthly routine of actually going to get hair treatments, and do something about my already damaged hair. And keep a daily/weekly routine of doing my own hair mask and stuff. (I might end up not doing any of those... cuz firstly, I need to stick to one salon, and one hairstylist. I keep salon-hopping)
Maybelline has this new liquid foundation thing which comes in 6 shades, and I wanna get one! (In case you don't know yet, most of my make-up items are by Maybelline). I guess it's time for me to renew my make-up kit... -sigh-
But first... I GOTTA DO SOMETHING ABOUT MY HAIR UNTIL I GET THE PERM DONE! What do you do when you've got curls at the top, and rebonded hair at the bottom?
the beauty exposed ; 10:43 AM
Friday, April 25, 2008
Movie-mania
Collected my uniforms yesterday morning... Well, I guess I've gained more pounds over the last few weeks... So I'm gonna alter my uniform here and there.
Wanted to head to Sentosa, but the darn weather was horrible, and it was raining throughout! So had to change plans, and hung out at ViVoCity. (And ugh! Today is so bright and sunny! How freaking annoying! I wanna go to the beach!)
This is one fucked up hilarious movie! I am being so honest here. I've never laughed so hard in a theater. It's a definite must watch! They made a joke out of almost every race in the movie.
"Why does your pubes look like Osama's beard?"
That's my most fave quote from the movie.
Split up with the group shortly after finishing a BK meal, and laughed at school memories... So I met up with Tony-darling after that... Ate at Sushi Tei (again), and I ordered my usual meal: Sukiyaki.Then he wanted to watch Harold & Kumar, but the tickets were all sold out, so we ended up watching Forbidden Kingdom.
It wasn't a bad movie. Neither was it entirely good. It was a tad draggy, although perhaps I should blame it on the fact that I was feeling unwell throughout. I was practically shivering in the cinema, and sneezing away, and my head was so heavy, I just couldn't concentrate on the movie and thought of sleeping. But, anyhow, knowing Jet Li & Jackie Chan, there are fighting scenes (like duh!). It was about a monkey king's staff being entrusted to an American boy, and he must return it back to the monkey king. That's about all. It was quite draggy until about an hour has passed.
Monk: We will send our walking monk. Jackie Chan: Can't you send a running monk?
After that movie, I went straight back home. Didn't even bother about having dinner or whatsoever. The moment I got home, immediately took 4 tabs of chloramine, watched a bit of TV, and slept. And I feel a whole shitload better today!
3 more days till work starts. Ugh.
the beauty exposed ; 12:44 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Dearest Jake...
Don't know what's going on Don't know what went wrong Feels like a hundred years I Still can't believe you're gone So I'll stay up all night With these bloodshot eyes While all these walls surround me with the story of our life
I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever
Now things are coming clear And I don't need you here And in this world around me I'm glad you disappeared So I'll stay out all night Get drunk and fuck and fight Until the morning comes I'll Forget about our life
I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever
First time you screamed at me I should have made you leave I should have known it could be so much better I hope you're missing me I hope I've made you see That I'm gone forever
And now it's coming clear That I don't need you here And in this world around me I'm glad you disappeared
I feel so much better Now that you're gone forever I tell myself that I don't miss you at all I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now That you're gone forever And now you're gone forever
-sigh-
the beauty exposed ; 10:53 PM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
When insanity kicks in...
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.
It feels like I'm listening to a ticking time-bomb. As the days comes closer, I get more unsure. Adulthood. Life. Work. Am I truly ready for it?
With all the wild thoughts sinking into my head, it's hard to get a grip of yourself, and tell yourself to just breathe. Being aware of my own breathing pattern, and even hear my own heart beating in my ears. All those wild thoughts. I need to make a run for it, but there's nowhere to run to now. All I could do is cower in the corner, but how long will it take till reality finds me? Not that long.
Sometimes, most of the times, I just wish I could just give in. Not having the need to fight on, not having the need to live on, fight for my own sanity. I could simply stare into nothingness, and make time stop all around me, yet the world goes on. Is that where I wanna be? In my own little world... But wouldn't I be all alone? For no one will get me. No one will understand.
I guess I'm simply losing it. Look behind the smiles, the laughter, the twinkle in my eyes... And you'll get to see the real me.
I have seen so many loving faces They turn back and leave with looks of regret The road goes and I am finding home in it
the beauty exposed ; 8:26 PM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
K-drama/movie craze
Anyhow... I'm taking a break from animes.
Now... I'm hitting those Korean dramas and movies I've been meaning to watch.
I've already watched Sex is Zero, Sex is Zero 2, I'm a Cyborg, but that's OK and Skeletons in the Closet.
More more more to watch!
the beauty exposed ; 10:37 PM
I've been online everyday for like 24hrs.. And now, I have no idea what to do anymore.
Rawr.
My baby niece is super cute, k.
the beauty exposed ; 2:54 PM
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Toys'R'Us
Went to ViVoCity today. Phew. I swear I could get lost there... I was walking around in circles over and over and over.
So.. started off at Sushi Tei. Had my usual dose of sukiyaki, and some sashimi. Yumm! Spent almost $100 there.. But it's totally worth it.. And I mixed my ice lemon tea with cold sake, and it tasted quite weird... but I still finished the drink.
Again, Toys'R'Us got me crazy. Haha. I just adore the place!
Omg! I have a fish on my head!
This giant was calling out to me.... to worship him...
Penguins = ♥
This is Elmo's World.... or rather, My World... seriously.
Since there wasn't any other movies to watch, and after a brief argument... Decided to just watch this movie with "sulky" faces. But the movie wasn't so bad. It was about a "wife" trying to murder her billionaire "husband" so that she could inherit all his money and pay off for the malpractice suits her surgical team was facing. Her husband, Clay (acted by Hayden Christensen), had a weak heart, and required transplant immediately. He met Sam (acted by Jessica Alba), and going against his mother (because Sam was supposed to be his mother's P.A), went ahead to marry her. What he didn't know was that Sam used to be a scrub nurse, and now her entire surgical team faced malpractice suits. So the whole idea was to kill him on the operating table itself (by injecting the donor's heart with I-forgot-what). But Clay "awakened" during the surgery itself, overheard the entire conversation between the surgeons & nurse (due to the fact that the anesthetic dose was probably not enough), and tried to "run away" to first, forget about the pain (his chest was cut open) and second, seek the truth. The conclusion? Go watch yourself.
But there's some stuff I'd like to critic about the movie. - During the surgery itself... --there was a breach in sterility. How could the surgical team remove their face masks in the middle of the surgery? -- how could a civilian (Sam, in this case, as she wasn't part of the team at the moment) simply walk into the theater's corridor, and then into the theater, without having any medical personnel stopping her? -- how could Sam just simply, without sterile gloves, just touch the syringe, and pass it to the surgeon (who was wearing sterile gloves) -- how could the anesthetist just went out for a solid 30 mins without having another anesthetist to cover for him, when in fact, the patient's vitals had to be monitored really closely throughout the surgery? -- how could the scrub nurse just walk out, and the surgeon helping himself with all the instruments during the surgery? - During the intubation period, the anesthetist, nor the nurse secured the ETT with a tape. - After Lilith's death, they couldn't just immediately remove her organ and use it for transplant. She wasn't even declared brain dead. The transplant council haven't even approved of her organ, yet it was still used. - Lilith overdosed herself with Clay's heart medication (can't remember if it was digoxin, or isosorbide or something else). If she did that, her BP would be low, and her heart would be pumping damn slowly.... wouldn't that jeopardize her heart condition, and make it unsuitable for transplant usage? - If the surgical team faced malpractice suits, I believe that the lawyers will be paid for by the hospital. And if the team lost the suits, wouldn't the licenses be taken away, hence disabling them from practicing as a surgeon and a nurse? (who would be sane enough to get a surgeon who faced 4 malpractice suits, anyway?)
And with that, I shall shut my mouth up. No more arguing.
Once more I'll say goodbye to you Things happen but we don't really know why If it's supposed to be like this Why do most of us ignore the chance to miss?
Torn apart at the seams of my dreams turn to tears I'm not feeling this situation Run away try to find that safe place you can hide It's the best place to be when you're feeling like me
the beauty exposed ; 11:03 PM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
You're Not Alone.
the beauty exposed ; 12:13 PM
Monday, April 14, 2008
Missing school && Toys'R'Us
Today's supposedly the day school reopens.
I miss school terribly. I long to be in school and studying again. It might sound whacked, but I enjoy studying. I love exams, the stress, the pressure. It may look like I hate cramming for exams, but deep inside, I love it. Burning the midnight oil, waking up 3 hours earlier before the exams to do my last minute studying. Call me psycho for studying only one day before or in the morning of the exams, but hey, I passed.
I miss school.
I've been receiving tons of letters from universities, telling me about the courses offered, and I'm so tempted to just sign up and continue studying, not having to work. But I'm still unsure about what I really wanna do in life. Maybe, just maybe, this is the end of my dreams of becoming a make-up artist... applying make-up for theatrical actors, broadway casts, magazine models... What a dream.
Anyhow... went to Toys'R'Us today... for the fun of it... To reminisce on my childhood days (not that it was entirely awesome, but you know... the feeling you get when you see toys that are similar to what you used to have... the feeling that you're just.... old).
I'm a fire-woman! Wheeeeee! (pshh.. i look like a dork...)
I didn't know Robin uses blue.. I thought he wore red or green...
Presenting....... Barney the pervertic dinosaur!!!!I still can't forget the song Fairuz came up with for Barney... Omg. Good times, good times. We just laughed and laughed at McDonald's for so long till our stomachs hurt... And still don't stop.
I want a lightsaber!! I magically turn into a kid the moment I enter Toys'R'Us. Amazing.
Just for the fun of it.... Here's Xuan... I can't forget this ICA project we worked on... Took us forever to get the whole thing right... I think this was our most stressful project... ever! Ugh! But this picture is so funny. Adored! I miss doing projects with you!! And the rest of the girls in my oh-so-precious subgroup!
I know Danny Norriega is long gone from American Idol... But still, I get this remark: "Heyyy! You look like that guy from American Idol! The one that got eliminated last month!" My reply: "I know!!! He's my younger brother, that's why!"
Pfft.
Forget about the shit that we've been through I wanna stay here forever and always Standing here in front of all of you I wanna stay here forever and always
the beauty exposed ; 10:38 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Four Brothers.
Finally watched this movie. Awesome awesome! You guys gotta watch this movie! Garrett Hedlund is soooooo handsome in the movie. Especially loved the part in the movie where he was wearing nothing after a shower... haha. No worries, only his butt is exposed. Hot. Loved the abs. I shall stop.
Fixed the playlist cuz I just realized that some songs aren't working. So, removed those songs, and added more songs. ♥
I'm still upset about the graduation thingy. Kinda upset that I'm unable to take pictures with other peeps from Group A... cuz they are all in the afternoon session and I'm in the morning session! Shuckks! Stupid schedule. Gah!
I never want to be part of the herd I guess I was in case you haven’t heard Maybe you can tell that I can’t stand The way I want to be the included I always want to be a mystery I always knew that two and two made three I wish away the time I’m living in I never wanna see the smile again
the beauty exposed ; 10:00 PM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Fashion craze.
I'm on a fashion craze. I want these stuff. Buy any for me, and I promise I will love you forever! OK, whatever. The following pictures are much more important that what I've gotta say
